




private journals
Spent the night in Paris
Where we visit Place de Mahmoud Darwish
and Sacré-Cœur
I pictured the joy in your heart
And save it for eternity in
Water lilies & mirror lakes
Crab color sky and
cherry ice cream with children
Reminds you of a stolen time.
It was the day you remembered
Fragments of my heart has stolen
It was the day you died
in front of me hundreds of times
Lavish man with
a soft beard & lantern
It was the day, but it’s not yet
It’s not the day
To call me
A lover
A sweetheart
Purge myself from the past
Trying the hardest while I can
Tormented, anxious
Depression & rispredon
Addiction, grief, misadventure
I’m still on the bright side
Sometimes we face
the call inside of us
Life want us to change
It was August and I was bright
To a generation of healers
Hold on to limits, lilies & the dark
I wanted to write about the moment when stopped crying every day, the moment I was free, the moment when the government decided to let us breath a bit, we as women. In 1/8/2019 the government made few adjustments on traveling documents and they state that everyone above 21 can issue a passport without agreement of his/her guardian angel. The day makes a huge impact on Saudi women’s life and many of them will still consider this day as the fall of guardianship law. Now, since I’m legally free I start sleeping better and nothing will stop me from accomplishing my dreams.
Sad to bring this upon you
You, my loved one
You, my sunshine
when I needed the light
You’re the water nature of myself
You’re the earth
when I needed to feel comfort
Mama, Hated the country
But never the home
I wanted freedom but
Never to escape
I’m stayin’ I’m leavin’
I’ll be here until
I found myself that once lost
Mama, my heart only escaped